Miserable

Last Monday I had a meltdown, Pain, fatigue, itching, burning. I did get treatment that day which was my 14th. I have 6 different lotions, silverdene, hydrocortisone, lidocaine all that I apply during the day. 

Underarm is healing and doing good, chest still has tiny blisters, and itching. The area under the breast is the spot giving me trouble. Have raw skin that wants to weep, itch, burn. 

I have called both oncologist and said I don’t want anymore. Of course they are giving the statistics and want me to finish up at least the boosts. 

The boost aren’t suppose to be covering the large area more direct. If this was my first cancer then I would but it is my second. The first was very aggressive and I am watched so closely. Due to that watching could be why I have secondary. No one knows… 

My ribs are even complaining..