Boost radiation

Had my first boost today. So thankful this is my last week. I am burnt from one last week after taking a week off. The local pharmacy I use aka Walgreens, never ever ever has the silverdene in stock. Thankfully I asked for more before out. 

I look forward to the day I sit and write about more then cancer treatments. 

My joys in pics

Returned today

I did return today to radiation treatment. Had last full breast treatment. Tomorrow will have films and booster radiation will begin, then all next week everyday will have treatment. 

Keep me in prayers please. Praying I don’t burn this week like before.

Seeing light

Last night I slept with out waking in pain when rolling over. The itch is decreasing the raw under the breast isn’t as raw. 

Do I return to finish the treatments?

It took 14 to get to the point I was at, I only have 7 left.  

I can do it, right?

Two cancers since 2012. In the last 2-3 I was finally living again without fear and anxiety over its return. Enjoying all the blessings around me. 

I need to return, and finish?

 

Miserable

Last Monday I had a meltdown, Pain, fatigue, itching, burning. I did get treatment that day which was my 14th. I have 6 different lotions, silverdene, hydrocortisone, lidocaine all that I apply during the day. 

Underarm is healing and doing good, chest still has tiny blisters, and itching. The area under the breast is the spot giving me trouble. Have raw skin that wants to weep, itch, burn. 

I have called both oncologist and said I don’t want anymore. Of course they are giving the statistics and want me to finish up at least the boosts. 

The boost aren’t suppose to be covering the large area more direct. If this was my first cancer then I would but it is my second. The first was very aggressive and I am watched so closely. Due to that watching could be why I have secondary. No one knows… 

My ribs are even complaining..

Radiation has begun

Today was the first day of radiation. They had to tattoo me again. Draw on me several lines since I am allergic to all adhesive tapes. One problem is the drawings have worn off already. Hope enough is there by morning for them to follow and redraw. 

What ever dignity you have is completely lost when you have cancer. I will save you details for now.

My daughter went with me today and tomorrow even though it is her birthday. My baby girl turns 19. Feels good saying that. See I was told I wouldn’t see her be 15. She is 19 and so brave, strong, independent and successful young lady. 

The worse thing is my arms during the radiation session. They are complaining being above my head. I could barley bring them down today they hurt so much. Fingers were ice. They said tomorrow would be shorter so we will see. 

Good night everyone 

Thank you for all your prayers