Time passes…

How did I begin blogging with little, but now have adults? 

My oldest just graduated Paramedic school. Made Sargent in National Guard. Has 3 children and 4th on the way. Married for 5 years. 

Second born is graduating with B.M in music performance has been accepted to 6 graduate schools. Married to his high school sweetheart for 4 years.

Then my third, Junior in college working towards his civil engineering degree. Has a wonderful woman in his life that is also studying the same things as him. 

My baby, couldn’t be more proud of, at 18 she was totally independent had her own place owned her car. Smart as whip when it comes to money and people. She is all I wished I had been more like.  Has a special man that is perfect for her. 

Last night was my sons Senior Recital big deal for music grads. It brought me to tears. Seeing my babies grow into adults and path their way in this world: raising them, all the thoughts, fears, planing, and prayers. Trying to teach them not just arithmetic and English, but Gods word, faith and promises. Commitment, dedication, ethics, self thinkers, self starters, confident people strong and not influenced by the world.

The biggest deal to me is that ALL four still come home and still call and still include me into their life. 

Boost radiation

Had my first boost today. So thankful this is my last week. I am burnt from one last week after taking a week off. The local pharmacy I use aka Walgreens, never ever ever has the silverdene in stock. Thankfully I asked for more before out. 

I look forward to the day I sit and write about more then cancer treatments. 

My joys in pics

Returned today

I did return today to radiation treatment. Had last full breast treatment. Tomorrow will have films and booster radiation will begin, then all next week everyday will have treatment. 

Keep me in prayers please. Praying I don’t burn this week like before.

Seeing light

Last night I slept with out waking in pain when rolling over. The itch is decreasing the raw under the breast isn’t as raw. 

Do I return to finish the treatments?

It took 14 to get to the point I was at, I only have 7 left.  

I can do it, right?

Two cancers since 2012. In the last 2-3 I was finally living again without fear and anxiety over its return. Enjoying all the blessings around me. 

I need to return, and finish?

 

Miserable

Last Monday I had a meltdown, Pain, fatigue, itching, burning. I did get treatment that day which was my 14th. I have 6 different lotions, silverdene, hydrocortisone, lidocaine all that I apply during the day. 

Underarm is healing and doing good, chest still has tiny blisters, and itching. The area under the breast is the spot giving me trouble. Have raw skin that wants to weep, itch, burn. 

I have called both oncologist and said I don’t want anymore. Of course they are giving the statistics and want me to finish up at least the boosts. 

The boost aren’t suppose to be covering the large area more direct. If this was my first cancer then I would but it is my second. The first was very aggressive and I am watched so closely. Due to that watching could be why I have secondary. No one knows… 

My ribs are even complaining..